The universe is the womb where Gods are made
Every human life is a single iteration in the human project. A test run to see if that’s the best way to be. So don’t get too attached but know also your importance and great significance in the smallness that is your happening.
Of course this is only the case in so far as each human is free to be such an iteration.
If you continue suffering the things you’ve lost, you will forever fail to accept new things into your life. Even if you gain through your loss, you will fail to acknowledge or appreciate those things as long as you continue looking to the past. Turn around, and stop walking backwards.
Your personality is largely constructed by you in reaction to how society perceives you. Therefore, whatever the first impressions are that you put off – these very things will either be building blocks for your person or the barriers that your person strives to rise above.